it's a good thing that all my previous boyfriends weren't that great to me cause it makes me appreciate jake soooo much more. he's so amazing. i'm so lucky.

i failed weights and arobics cause my teacher is a slut ass bitch. fuck. i hate school.

last night...i had a slumber party for all the altos in my choir class from school. it was soooooo fun. we had ice cream cake and pizza. lol...and get this...our ice cream cake AND our pizza both said go altos on them. deaanah works at little caesars and paris works at dairy queen so we got the hook ups. lol. watched over the hedge which was a really funny movie...then we watched the omen. i was seriously scared shitless. lol...i hate movies that have to do with the devil. corey found the fact that i was scared very entertaining. lol....yeah our party was suposed to be for choir members only...but we let corey slide...he's just that cool. lol.. anyway, we watched the lake house this morning...it was an amazing movie. i went to chuck e. cheese's today, then went to see open season, good movie...and then went to chilis for dinner...now i'm watching ghost whisperer and talking to corey. yeah.....

well...adrian's party was over the weekend.
it was a lot of fun.
and i was laughing and smiling
for hours on end for the first time in a loooong time.
i'm really glad i went. i needed that. : ]
i went to the pistons game sunday..they lost.
but it was fun anyways.

last person you...
Talked to:: autumn
Kissed:: kyle.
Hugged:: autumn
IMed:: hmm..corey.
Said I love you to:: autumn
Yelled @:: the computer. i even threatend to throw it out the window...lol
Shared a bed with:: oh geez...um...autumn.
Apologized to:: ummm....i don't remember...amanda i think
got drunk with:: oh goshhh...i don't remember
laughed @:: autumn
cryed to:: my dad
talked on the phone with:: amanda
got a voicemail from:: amanda
got a text message from:: jonathan a loooooong time ago
danced with:: my choir class...lol
got punched by:: brittany lmao
got an IM from:: corey
said good-bye to:: autumn

well let's see...i was suposed to go to adrians today...but of course corey never called me. w/e. so i took a nap. im sick of school, sick of seeing kyle, and sick of seeing him happy with that over-sized slut. grr. i get to stay the night at adrians this weekend. i'll be with the ppl that make me happy...things will be better.

doooood...i just had the most fun i've had in a looooong time. autumn picked me up outta no where and we went to tj max and looked at shoes and clothes and ran around the store. then we went to the new walmart supercenter (which is amazing by the way) and then we ran around and took like a 1/2 hour trying to pick out chap stick. then i found these sweet slippers that look like lions and i carried them around and put my chapstick inside of them and used them as a purse. it was fun. then we went to the meijer gas station and i mixed mello yellow, mr. pibb, coke zero, sprite, and root beer together...i thought it was going taste disgusting but it was actually pretty good. i don't know why i had fun...but i did. deal wit it yoo...

im at adrians and everyone is playing a ninja video game. hahah...losers.

there was a trail ride today...and a horse broke it's leg and they shot the horse 5 times.
poor horse. i'm so glad i wasn't there to see that.

i'm waiting for corey to get outtta work. we're gonna play video games.
gangster video games. : ]

"It's like before they come into your life you're fine, and then there they are and there they go. You'd think that when they leave things would go back to the way they were before, but soon enough you'll find that things just aren't the same." -Me

yeah, i know. i'm just that good. it actually wasn't that hard to think of...i just said exactly what i was feeling.

i keep on feeling like kyle is gonna show up like he used to and everything will be back to normal. but no. i'm alone. just wishful thinking, i guess. what a jerk. i hate him. how could ANYONE do that to anyone. i mean, some people deserve the crap they get, but me!? NO WAY. i did nothing. i'm a good person and i didn't deserve what he did to me. i guess it wouldn't take long for him to hit me...i've seen him lose his temper and it wasn't on me thank god. but what if it would have been...i had no idea he had such a short fuse. and it would be only a matter of time before i would be getting screamed at by him. i guess this is for the better. and although it doesn't feel like it now, him doing this was prolly a really good thing. god i hope so. and i REALLY hope that i'll get passed this REAL soon.

all i can say is, i need more friends. more real true friends. friends that don't backstab and cheat and lie and betray. grr.

F.Y.I.-i love you robbie, adrian, && corey. you guys are the few friends that are still there for me. therefore non of the above statements apply to you. : ]